This is the perfect doomer characterisation, Lannie. Looks to me like you were built for it, promoting death / destruction, instead of life / creation.

I dunno what else to say, I guess you'll never be changed, this is the doomer mentality, and being saddled with it makes it so.

The negative energy beast loves you so, when you obediently lie down and die for it, when you can contribute energy to it no more.

Even better if you can convince others to do the same.