You swim often in my thoughts, from that distant day you first appeared, on the scan, dancing and waving at us.
I knew you were the one who would survive, you have always been so full of life, from day one.
You were a bundle of joy hanging round my neck, until disaster struck, removing me from your every day life, through no fault of yours.
My heart has broken a thousand times, seeing you having to tread so carefully, to try to avoid being weaponised. You had to grow up so quickly.
And you have done a truly amazing job of that.
Now you are taller than me, infinitely more wise, and of course, infinitely prettier.
My heart swells with pride every time I see you.
Tomorrow, taken distant from me this very special week you turn sixteen, now you will be the age when a long time ago, I myself had to spread my wings and fly far, far from home as an adult.
My heart breaks once more that I can’t be with you on your sixteenth birthday.
But never fear, I will still be here to celebrate with you when you can come back, in a few days.
You will always be the apple of my eye, no matter what comes next.
I love you very much, daughter.
A Very Happy Birthday to You!