I am probably not as studious as you obviously are, I don’t know much about Nietsche, and only that Stalin was not particularly good. My instinct says suicide is probably not the best thing to study.

I hate suicide too, Life is good, no matter what comes, all of it makes us stronger.

There are a few data websites I like too, here are my current two favourites:

Renewable Energy Resources

auspice

I wish you all the best for the future