Hats off to your honesty here.
But the world is dying, it's official, we are losing life, all species of life at exponentially increasing pace.
The measure by which it is dying is temperature, it indicates the charge level of something like the "battery of life" on the planet. higher temperature means less life / usable energy left in the pot to use up.
This is entropy, and there is a mathematical relationship between this and the energy in profit, which has to be always energy removed from the planet.
Science doesn't like to admit it's part of it, being dependent on extracted energy itself, like we all are.
Science prefers to claim it's due to blanket effect, but the latter is impossible since the atmosphere is adiabatic, just hardly anybody seems to know this.
In your life the money you made to buy your house and stay in it, was made like this, unless you inherited from somebody else who made it like that.
So your visit to life came at a cost to life, like all of us so far, we never had any choice but to be like this.
The only way to turn it round to creation is to move to permanent solar indexed stimulus.
That is the only way to start reversing increase of entropy, in order that we might even have a workable planet for the latest generations.