Eric, maybe if you wound in some work by somone else looking from a more physical view, that might help put you on a more positive path. I personally feel no regrets for the hermit life I've had to lead lately to do my own work on the energy problem since related PhD candidate work in 2017. I might have had an unfair advantage by being a thirty year practicing systems Engineer equipped with formal tools and training to do this task, it has been completely unpaid, leaving me in perilous financial position, but personally I feel enriched, even if humanity never actually latches onto seeing itself as I see it, an infant species being born into adulthood, and even dies at birth, I will still feel fine, because I know it was the right thing to do, and I tried (See my own response to Indi).